Meal #1: 1 scoop(comes in the protien powder) protien powder , 1 1/2 scoops dry oatmeal and 1 teas flax seed oil, put in a blender with 8 ounces water and some ice, blend until smooth then pour in a chilled glass and drink.
Meal#2: 1 1/2 cup brown rice(or a small red potatoe), 4 ounces protien(turkey, fish or chicken) baked or broiled, 1 1/2 cups salad, dressing consists of 1 teas olive oil, 1 teas balsamic vinegar and 1 teas lemon juice
Meal #3: the same as meal#1
Meal #4 same guidlines as meal #2
Meal #5 1/2 cup lo fat cottage cheese
That is is for every day for 2 weeks
You can do a carb overload on Tuesday & Thursday.......are you ready for this.....add another 1/2 cup brown rice to your meal #2 & #4......I know, i couldnt believe it either,LMAO.
You can season w/Mrs. Dash or Molly Mcbutter, but no salt, garlic salt etc.
And also drink 1 Gal water every day.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
WOW, I am back
Hey Everyone:
So here I am... this blog is not for me to try and show that because I have lost 46lbs that I have the cure all knowledge for weight loss and/or fitness, because no one does, we each have to find our comfort zone. I guess you could say I am writing this blog more-less for my own selfish reasons , it helps me to keep in check what I need to do...it keeps me aware of what I need to do in order to continue on this weight loss journey and get to where I am comfortable and where I want to be. And also to help me learn and keep myself true to the woman I have become.
But I also am very interested in writing a book in the future, regarding the trials and tribulations women go through each and every day,whether it be parenting, work, school, friendships, dating, abusive or failing relationships and allot of the other things that I have been through that I know allot of other women go through. And to show that "We Can" survive.
I want women to know...."If I can do this anyone can".....I have survived allot through my 47 years, abusive love relationships starting in my younger dating years, up until my divorce 11 years ago. The loss of a baby, and also several toxic failed relationships. but it can all be dealt with and conquered.
All the failures(whether it be in love or just life in general) a woman can surpass all this and it has all made me the strong, confident woman I am today. would i do it all again? Well I can truely say when it came to relationships & love "HELL NO" I would have chosen the men I date or was involved with definitely in a different way, but thats a whole other topic for a future blog, LOL
Overeating and being overweight is not something any of us choose, when we are younger grow up we do not go around staying "I want to be an overweight/ a big person when I grow up" overeating and being overweight is like that of a drug addict or alcoholic.....it is a disease, and no one can make you want to lose weight or get healthy unless, you yourself is ready to make the change. And then after the choice has been made to do so, it has to be done in a healthy way. Overeating and unhealthy eating all stems from something, sometimes we ourselves are not even aware of...stress depression, etc
Well I knew I had a very long way to go, so after the summer, I am back and ready to roll. Of course the 2011 Challenge will start soon and I will compete again. But I have my own goals and dreams and I want to lose 60 lbs by June of 2011.
I hope you enjoy my blog and if there are ever anytime you want to ask me questions, please feel free to do so.
blueeyes4082@aol.com (please put BLOG in the subject line)
Have an awesome day!
Tamra
Saturday, April 3, 2010
The End, Yet A New Begining
WOW, the 12 weeks went by soooo fast, here is my essay I turned in at my final weigh in.
Thank You so much for everyones love and support.
I will continue to blog, I am still on this weight loss journey and I am determined to lose another 100lbs, my goal is by my 30th yr class reunion next year, hang on cuz we are on for the ride of my life, lol.
I would like to first start off by thanking Gold’s Gym, this has been the most awesome journey I have ever experienced in my life and I would like to especially Thank Blair,Laura, Randy and Rose at both local Gold’s they have all taken such a personal interest in helping me with my success.
When I first started this journey and would tell people about these changes I was experiencing, there were so many people who had their own health, diet and exercise tips. I would think to myself, how can they be such an expert, when they are sitting there eating a super size quarter pounder meal, followed by a cigarette, very interesting.
Before I started the challenge I was leading such an unhealthy lifestyle and my life was at risk, I was eating out at fast food restaurants 3-4 times a week and continuously gaining weight. Being a single mother of 3, I needed to do this for my children. But first and foremost I needed to do this for myself.
I have learned to love myself and to be happy again. I have learned to rid my life of toxic food, people and relationships; I carry myself in a more happy, confident and proud way now. I have dealt with so much stress in the past 12 weeks, everything from being laid off, to having to move out of my home. But I know how to deal with stress in a totally different way now, then I would have handled in it the past. I no longer eat out of stress, I work out. My diet & workout routine have been the only two things in my life in the last 12 weeks that have been consistent and positive in my life.
I have learned that living an unhealthy lifestyle is like being a drug addict, food was my friend before, it never let me down or judged me it calmed and soothed me. Now exercise does this for me. I have learned to eat as needed, not as much as I want. I have learned that if you fall off your diet and/or exercise program to pick myself up, dust myself off and start back where I left off.
I never in my life thought I would have people telling me how great I am looking and asking me for tips and asking me questions regarding my weight loss journey, my weight loss and fitness journey has inspired others, family members and friends. Even strangers who have read my blog. Never in my life would I have ever thought I could do this let alone inspire others.
In the past when I would travel out of town, I would think of all the awesome restaurants and food I would get to experience, now I am googling where the gyms are where I will be visiting. My lifestyle has done a 380 degree turn around, I love myself, I have learned to eat healthier, exercise daily, no longer settle in a relationship, I know now I deserve so much better things & people in my life.
I have completely changed my life thanks to Gold’s Gym and all the support I have received , I am more fit and healthier than I have ever been in my adult life. I am off my anti-depressants & blood pressure medicines and I accomplished what I set out to do, I will continue on this weight loss/fitness journey. I still have a long road ahead of me, but with the support from the good friends I have made will on this journey, my family and the love and adornment I have found for myself I will succeed even further than I have done in the last 12 weeks.
I now want to write a book in hopes to help other women who have struggled their whole life with their weight, health, relationships, loving and finding themselves . I will continue on my journey of a healthy way of living & eating, with my daily exercise at Gold’s Gym, but most of all my love for myself and my children and my drive now to know that I can do this and I have proven to myself I can and I deserve it.
Final Results:
For the 12 week Gold's Challenge I have lost 32 lbs & 7 1/2 inches off my hips.
For the KYSN contest I lost 36 lbs.
Now the next step...lose 100 lbs by the 30th year class reunion next year and to research on how to get the book I want to write published, any idea's?
Thank You so much for everyones love and support.
I will continue to blog, I am still on this weight loss journey and I am determined to lose another 100lbs, my goal is by my 30th yr class reunion next year, hang on cuz we are on for the ride of my life, lol.
I would like to first start off by thanking Gold’s Gym, this has been the most awesome journey I have ever experienced in my life and I would like to especially Thank Blair,Laura, Randy and Rose at both local Gold’s they have all taken such a personal interest in helping me with my success.
When I first started this journey and would tell people about these changes I was experiencing, there were so many people who had their own health, diet and exercise tips. I would think to myself, how can they be such an expert, when they are sitting there eating a super size quarter pounder meal, followed by a cigarette, very interesting.
Before I started the challenge I was leading such an unhealthy lifestyle and my life was at risk, I was eating out at fast food restaurants 3-4 times a week and continuously gaining weight. Being a single mother of 3, I needed to do this for my children. But first and foremost I needed to do this for myself.
I have learned to love myself and to be happy again. I have learned to rid my life of toxic food, people and relationships; I carry myself in a more happy, confident and proud way now. I have dealt with so much stress in the past 12 weeks, everything from being laid off, to having to move out of my home. But I know how to deal with stress in a totally different way now, then I would have handled in it the past. I no longer eat out of stress, I work out. My diet & workout routine have been the only two things in my life in the last 12 weeks that have been consistent and positive in my life.
I have learned that living an unhealthy lifestyle is like being a drug addict, food was my friend before, it never let me down or judged me it calmed and soothed me. Now exercise does this for me. I have learned to eat as needed, not as much as I want. I have learned that if you fall off your diet and/or exercise program to pick myself up, dust myself off and start back where I left off.
I never in my life thought I would have people telling me how great I am looking and asking me for tips and asking me questions regarding my weight loss journey, my weight loss and fitness journey has inspired others, family members and friends. Even strangers who have read my blog. Never in my life would I have ever thought I could do this let alone inspire others.
In the past when I would travel out of town, I would think of all the awesome restaurants and food I would get to experience, now I am googling where the gyms are where I will be visiting. My lifestyle has done a 380 degree turn around, I love myself, I have learned to eat healthier, exercise daily, no longer settle in a relationship, I know now I deserve so much better things & people in my life.
I have completely changed my life thanks to Gold’s Gym and all the support I have received , I am more fit and healthier than I have ever been in my adult life. I am off my anti-depressants & blood pressure medicines and I accomplished what I set out to do, I will continue on this weight loss/fitness journey. I still have a long road ahead of me, but with the support from the good friends I have made will on this journey, my family and the love and adornment I have found for myself I will succeed even further than I have done in the last 12 weeks.
I now want to write a book in hopes to help other women who have struggled their whole life with their weight, health, relationships, loving and finding themselves . I will continue on my journey of a healthy way of living & eating, with my daily exercise at Gold’s Gym, but most of all my love for myself and my children and my drive now to know that I can do this and I have proven to myself I can and I deserve it.
Final Results:
For the 12 week Gold's Challenge I have lost 32 lbs & 7 1/2 inches off my hips.
For the KYSN contest I lost 36 lbs.
Now the next step...lose 100 lbs by the 30th year class reunion next year and to research on how to get the book I want to write published, any idea's?
Saturday, February 20, 2010
The Half Way Mark
Well just completed week 6, 6 more weeks to go.
Weighed in yesterday lost 4lbs, I was happy to have lost anything after the last 2 weeks, the first of the two weeks did not go real well, I didn't necessarily cheat, I just didn't follow my diet to the T as I should have.
Work out with Rose on Thursday was brutal, but good.
Members on both teams have had to deal with a tremendous amount of stress in their every day life lately and that makes the getting out of bed early and making it to the gym difficult, but it is a real killer when it comes down to trying to lose weight.
There is a natural, stress-related hormone called cortisol that may contribute to weight issues, particularly abdominal fat. High amounts of cortisol are released into the blood stream when you are under stress. Receptors for cortisol are located in your abdomen, which triggers fat storage there. In 2000, researchers found that women with a high waist-to-hip ratio -- both overweight and slim -- secreted more cortisol under stress and reported more stress in their daily lives than women with lower waist-to-hip ratios.
Additionally, excess cortisol may actually cause your metabolism to slow down. This could mean that even if you don't consume more calories than usual, you could gain weight.
I have a good friend who once told me that when dealing with stress to be like a duck, be like a duck , I laughed should i flap my wings and quack?(Or whatever noise ducks make).
He said no, let the every day stress roll off your back.(like a duck does water)
So now most times when I am stressed, I do like a duck does and let it roll off my back.
Of course I then laugh because I think of myself walking around flapping my arms and quacking.
I appreciate you taking the time out to read my blog and I have had alto of feed back that I have motivated friends and family to start a more healthier life, that makes me happy.
Who would have knew that I could motivate myself to get to the gym every morning, let alone others.
Thanks everyone, I luv you.
Tam
Weighed in yesterday lost 4lbs, I was happy to have lost anything after the last 2 weeks, the first of the two weeks did not go real well, I didn't necessarily cheat, I just didn't follow my diet to the T as I should have.
Work out with Rose on Thursday was brutal, but good.
Members on both teams have had to deal with a tremendous amount of stress in their every day life lately and that makes the getting out of bed early and making it to the gym difficult, but it is a real killer when it comes down to trying to lose weight.
There is a natural, stress-related hormone called cortisol that may contribute to weight issues, particularly abdominal fat. High amounts of cortisol are released into the blood stream when you are under stress. Receptors for cortisol are located in your abdomen, which triggers fat storage there. In 2000, researchers found that women with a high waist-to-hip ratio -- both overweight and slim -- secreted more cortisol under stress and reported more stress in their daily lives than women with lower waist-to-hip ratios.
Additionally, excess cortisol may actually cause your metabolism to slow down. This could mean that even if you don't consume more calories than usual, you could gain weight.
I have a good friend who once told me that when dealing with stress to be like a duck, be like a duck , I laughed should i flap my wings and quack?(Or whatever noise ducks make).
He said no, let the every day stress roll off your back.(like a duck does water)
So now most times when I am stressed, I do like a duck does and let it roll off my back.
Of course I then laugh because I think of myself walking around flapping my arms and quacking.
I appreciate you taking the time out to read my blog and I have had alto of feed back that I have motivated friends and family to start a more healthier life, that makes me happy.
Who would have knew that I could motivate myself to get to the gym every morning, let alone others.
Thanks everyone, I luv you.
Tam
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Stagnent
Hey everyone:
Not allot to talk about tonight, kind of a blaw week.
This last week has kind of been stagnant, in somewhat of a rut, but tomorrow is a new week and time to get back on track.
Met with some fellow challengers Friday night at the Buzz Inn East, had one drink and drank diet Pepsi the rest of the night, very interesting watching people in the bar following off their bar stool and talking really loud.
It was fun laughing and visiting with the team members though.
Last week was some kind of week, lol. Just when you think it can't get any worse..tadddaaaa, you get hit yet again.
Didn't do very well following the diet exactly to a T, this last week,but tonight I made all my food for the next week and I will get back on track, for sure.
Can't give up just need to regroup and move on and hit it fresh in the morning.
Well nighty night, I have to get up at 4AM.
Take care
Tam
Not allot to talk about tonight, kind of a blaw week.
This last week has kind of been stagnant, in somewhat of a rut, but tomorrow is a new week and time to get back on track.
Met with some fellow challengers Friday night at the Buzz Inn East, had one drink and drank diet Pepsi the rest of the night, very interesting watching people in the bar following off their bar stool and talking really loud.
It was fun laughing and visiting with the team members though.
Last week was some kind of week, lol. Just when you think it can't get any worse..tadddaaaa, you get hit yet again.
Didn't do very well following the diet exactly to a T, this last week,but tonight I made all my food for the next week and I will get back on track, for sure.
Can't give up just need to regroup and move on and hit it fresh in the morning.
Well nighty night, I have to get up at 4AM.
Take care
Tam
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Getting Back On Track
Well, I have to say this week has been to most difficult.
My heart has just not been in to it this week. I have had allot of stress this week and I have allowed my emotions and the stress take over, but I have got to take my life back again, it has been 5 days of being out of control.
Today I didn't go work out, I feel somewhat emotionally and physically tired., Between the stress of my job, the harassment of the landlord and the gentleman who is living with that is somewhat disabled being hospitalized Monday. I just want to put my head in the sand.
I have promised myself that I am not going to let these emotions take over and to start fresh tomorrow and get back on track. I am a very strong willed woman and I know I can do this to the very end.
I hung my before pic on my bathroom mirror and hung several pics of Alicia Keyes next to them.
Something I found very interesting that I read earlier is to take pics of your self through the journey, with the same outfit that your before pic was taken in, so you can see the difference each week,
I have been considering yoga, my work out partner Joey has been trying to get me to go, but he makes it sound pretty strenuous, I want relaxing, meditating, candles, lights turned low, romantic music, massage, a bare naked man(oops sorry I got carried away, LOL)
I am heading to bed early tonight and start fresh in the morning., It is nice to go into Golds Gym at 5 AM and have so many people we just met when starting this challenge and being so into our progress and our results every day.
The girls who work at the Wenatchee Golds Gym are awesome, they laugh at me, because I dab my face w/my sweat towel after my work out rather than rub the towel all over my face. They I act so girly, LOL if they only knew what an animal I Can be, but that's a whole other blog, perhaps X-rated....just kidding.
But it does bring up something I learned when I started taking my suppliments for this challenge.
I started noticing after a few days, I was feeling extremly more, well ummmmmm.......frisky.
I have a friend who works for immigrations that works out and is really into body building, i had mentioned this new feel good feeling I was having 24/7, yes I said 24/7.
He laughed and said "what's yo hembi in" I saod my hembi, I do not own a yo hembi.....he said no, what yo hembi in.....once again i told him i do not have a yo hembi.....he kept laughing at me... the nerve. He said something I am taking has yohembi in it, I then realized what the hell he was trying to say...My gosh Larry, learn how to talk..LOL
He said ask John my trainer, so I went directly to GNC after work to talk with my trainer john....
"John" i asked what is it that I am taking rthat has Yohembi in? He laughed at me and said.:I was wondering when you were going to ask me anout that: LOL
Yohimbine is an alkoloid, stimulant and aphrodisiac, it is found in dietary suppluments or can be purchased over the counter as an herbal extract used for sexual dysfunction.. It is the name of a bark found on a tall evegreen tree found in Western Africa.
They say that 80% of users who purchase Yohimbine are completly saitisfied within a weeks time of using the product., let me tell you....I am 100% sold and a complete believer.
So in ending, I would like to widh every one an awesome week.
Valentines day is this weekend, my suggestion would be to buy the one you love chocolates and Yohimbine, the love will keep giving and giving and giving(I could go on forever, LOL)
Good night all and take care.
Tam
My heart has just not been in to it this week. I have had allot of stress this week and I have allowed my emotions and the stress take over, but I have got to take my life back again, it has been 5 days of being out of control.
Today I didn't go work out, I feel somewhat emotionally and physically tired., Between the stress of my job, the harassment of the landlord and the gentleman who is living with that is somewhat disabled being hospitalized Monday. I just want to put my head in the sand.
I have promised myself that I am not going to let these emotions take over and to start fresh tomorrow and get back on track. I am a very strong willed woman and I know I can do this to the very end.
I hung my before pic on my bathroom mirror and hung several pics of Alicia Keyes next to them.
Something I found very interesting that I read earlier is to take pics of your self through the journey, with the same outfit that your before pic was taken in, so you can see the difference each week,
I have been considering yoga, my work out partner Joey has been trying to get me to go, but he makes it sound pretty strenuous, I want relaxing, meditating, candles, lights turned low, romantic music, massage, a bare naked man(oops sorry I got carried away, LOL)
I am heading to bed early tonight and start fresh in the morning., It is nice to go into Golds Gym at 5 AM and have so many people we just met when starting this challenge and being so into our progress and our results every day.
The girls who work at the Wenatchee Golds Gym are awesome, they laugh at me, because I dab my face w/my sweat towel after my work out rather than rub the towel all over my face. They I act so girly, LOL if they only knew what an animal I Can be, but that's a whole other blog, perhaps X-rated....just kidding.
But it does bring up something I learned when I started taking my suppliments for this challenge.
I started noticing after a few days, I was feeling extremly more, well ummmmmm.......frisky.
I have a friend who works for immigrations that works out and is really into body building, i had mentioned this new feel good feeling I was having 24/7, yes I said 24/7.
He laughed and said "what's yo hembi in" I saod my hembi, I do not own a yo hembi.....he said no, what yo hembi in.....once again i told him i do not have a yo hembi.....he kept laughing at me... the nerve. He said something I am taking has yohembi in it, I then realized what the hell he was trying to say...My gosh Larry, learn how to talk..LOL
He said ask John my trainer, so I went directly to GNC after work to talk with my trainer john....
"John" i asked what is it that I am taking rthat has Yohembi in? He laughed at me and said.:I was wondering when you were going to ask me anout that: LOL
Yohimbine is an alkoloid, stimulant and aphrodisiac, it is found in dietary suppluments or can be purchased over the counter as an herbal extract used for sexual dysfunction.. It is the name of a bark found on a tall evegreen tree found in Western Africa.
They say that 80% of users who purchase Yohimbine are completly saitisfied within a weeks time of using the product., let me tell you....I am 100% sold and a complete believer.
So in ending, I would like to widh every one an awesome week.
Valentines day is this weekend, my suggestion would be to buy the one you love chocolates and Yohimbine, the love will keep giving and giving and giving(I could go on forever, LOL)
Good night all and take care.
Tam
Saturday, February 6, 2010
The Weigh in
Good Morning:
This morning is an awesome morning, I finally got a descent nights sleep in probably a week in an 1/2.
I think this has been the most difficult for me in this whole journey is getting my body adjusted to getting my butt to bed at a descent time in order to get up at 4 AM and really feel rested.
I try to go to bed Early enough, but then I toss and turn for several hours, thinking about work, thinking about what I am going to do about rent and other things.
But last night I went to bed approx about 10 PM and woke up at 9AM this morning. Yeah!!!!!!
I feel so much better, I was really needing this sleep.
We weighed in yesterday and I lost 8lbs, Of course I would have liked to have lost more, but It is still good.
My goal is to try and lose 5lbs every week .
This weekend is going to be quite challenging for allot of us w/the Superbowl and all.
My team the 49ers never made it, but whether our teams make it or not, we still have the Superbowl as an excuse to eat drink and be merry, LOL.
I am working at the home show today and when I was down there working yesterday evening and I am walking down an isle and someone says something to me, I turn around and here is Steve from the opposing team, right across from our booth......I feel the devilish side of me coming out, the horns and the trail exposing themselves......I wonder what kind of doughnuts, lattes and fatty foods they are selling this weekend here at the home show..hmmmmmmm, I will check it out today, I know Steve will probably get real hungry working at the home show today, I might have to but him a lil snack or two, or three, he he....just kidding.
Well everyone have an awesome weekend(go 49ers,LOL)two weeks until the next weigh in, my goal is to lose 10lbs.
Tam
This morning is an awesome morning, I finally got a descent nights sleep in probably a week in an 1/2.
I think this has been the most difficult for me in this whole journey is getting my body adjusted to getting my butt to bed at a descent time in order to get up at 4 AM and really feel rested.
I try to go to bed Early enough, but then I toss and turn for several hours, thinking about work, thinking about what I am going to do about rent and other things.
But last night I went to bed approx about 10 PM and woke up at 9AM this morning. Yeah!!!!!!
I feel so much better, I was really needing this sleep.
We weighed in yesterday and I lost 8lbs, Of course I would have liked to have lost more, but It is still good.
My goal is to try and lose 5lbs every week .
This weekend is going to be quite challenging for allot of us w/the Superbowl and all.
My team the 49ers never made it, but whether our teams make it or not, we still have the Superbowl as an excuse to eat drink and be merry, LOL.
I am working at the home show today and when I was down there working yesterday evening and I am walking down an isle and someone says something to me, I turn around and here is Steve from the opposing team, right across from our booth......I feel the devilish side of me coming out, the horns and the trail exposing themselves......I wonder what kind of doughnuts, lattes and fatty foods they are selling this weekend here at the home show..hmmmmmmm, I will check it out today, I know Steve will probably get real hungry working at the home show today, I might have to but him a lil snack or two, or three, he he....just kidding.
Well everyone have an awesome weekend(go 49ers,LOL)two weeks until the next weigh in, my goal is to lose 10lbs.
Tam
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Strength, Suppliments & Survival
Well tomorrow will be the 2nd weigh in since the KYSN competition started.
It's all good, I know I have lost more, but I haven't been to dependent on the scale this week, I like the element of surprise, LOL.
I have been doing cardio every day at 5AM, I really need to get in the gym at least 3x a week to do my strength/weights.
It has been a little hard for me this week, I am having trouble sleeping at night, there was allot of drama the beginning of the week, I have made some decisions regarding making changes in my personal life, then with the landlord raising the rent $300.00 a month and the overtime at work completely cut off to a tune of $1,600.00 less a month in my income....Now I need to make some decisions regarding home and work.
I have covered my diet and my exercise plan in previous posts, tonight I thought I would cover the supplements I am taking.
L-Glutamine(Awesome for sore muscles): one of the most abundant amino acids found in the skeletal system.
CLA: A naturally occurring fatty acid that is present in cheese and ground beef(types of food often excluded when restricting dietary intake.
Woman's Ultra Mega Vitamin
Pro Performance 100% whey protein powder: Chocolate, chocolate Carmel & banana are awesome.
Jet fuel(Fat Burner): this works awesome, you take 2-3 before your workout. It makes you sweat.
Preventative Nutrition(cleansing) I did the cleansing the first week.
All my supplements I purchase at GNC, my trainer and friend works there, he put me on my diet, my workout & my supplements. His name is John, he competes professionally (body building) he took 4th at Musclmania in Vegas.
If you ever have any questions regarding anything they sell at GNC, he can tell you everything you need to know and more.
This is the end of week 4, only 8 more weeks left, WOW it is going by really fast(I try to convince myself of this every morning when working out, LOL)
This is one of the most awesome experiences I have ever been through, if only I would have cared this much about taking care of myself and getting healthy.
But better late than never and I am surviving, working out has become addicting.(I just had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming when I said that just now)
I is so awesome to have such a great work out partner, Joey and all the team members are awesome.
But most of all the support the staff, Rose and the owner Blair are awesome, so positive and friendly.
They are always smiling and ready and eager to answer any questions we might have. That's the half of it right there, they make you feel so comfortable.
Have a great evening and I will be back tomorrow with the weigh in results, I need to sign off now, so I can deliver the 12 pack of high calorie beer, I promised to Steve on the other team(just kidding).
Sweet dreams and Thank You so much for following me on this journey of a lifetime.
Tam
It's all good, I know I have lost more, but I haven't been to dependent on the scale this week, I like the element of surprise, LOL.
I have been doing cardio every day at 5AM, I really need to get in the gym at least 3x a week to do my strength/weights.
It has been a little hard for me this week, I am having trouble sleeping at night, there was allot of drama the beginning of the week, I have made some decisions regarding making changes in my personal life, then with the landlord raising the rent $300.00 a month and the overtime at work completely cut off to a tune of $1,600.00 less a month in my income....Now I need to make some decisions regarding home and work.
I have covered my diet and my exercise plan in previous posts, tonight I thought I would cover the supplements I am taking.
L-Glutamine(Awesome for sore muscles): one of the most abundant amino acids found in the skeletal system.
CLA: A naturally occurring fatty acid that is present in cheese and ground beef(types of food often excluded when restricting dietary intake.
Woman's Ultra Mega Vitamin
Pro Performance 100% whey protein powder: Chocolate, chocolate Carmel & banana are awesome.
Jet fuel(Fat Burner): this works awesome, you take 2-3 before your workout. It makes you sweat.
Preventative Nutrition(cleansing) I did the cleansing the first week.
All my supplements I purchase at GNC, my trainer and friend works there, he put me on my diet, my workout & my supplements. His name is John, he competes professionally (body building) he took 4th at Musclmania in Vegas.
If you ever have any questions regarding anything they sell at GNC, he can tell you everything you need to know and more.
This is the end of week 4, only 8 more weeks left, WOW it is going by really fast(I try to convince myself of this every morning when working out, LOL)
This is one of the most awesome experiences I have ever been through, if only I would have cared this much about taking care of myself and getting healthy.
But better late than never and I am surviving, working out has become addicting.(I just had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming when I said that just now)
I is so awesome to have such a great work out partner, Joey and all the team members are awesome.
But most of all the support the staff, Rose and the owner Blair are awesome, so positive and friendly.
They are always smiling and ready and eager to answer any questions we might have. That's the half of it right there, they make you feel so comfortable.
Have a great evening and I will be back tomorrow with the weigh in results, I need to sign off now, so I can deliver the 12 pack of high calorie beer, I promised to Steve on the other team(just kidding).
Sweet dreams and Thank You so much for following me on this journey of a lifetime.
Tam
Monday, February 1, 2010
Toxic foods, people & Relationships
Toxic: contagious, corruptive, damaging, destructive, hurtfull, lethal, malignant, poisonous.
We all know what toxic foods & poisons are.
Toxic people: unfortunatly we all have at least one toxic person in our life and until we stop allowing this person(s) to hurt us, they will continue to do so.
Only you have the power to stop this person and you do so by controlling your own actions and reactions, you cannot control the actions of others. bu the good thing is you and only you have the power to control yourself and your life. You have the power to wlk away and to not allow these people in your life anymore, Freedom is an awesome thing. If you allow it these people have the ability to drain you of your heath, sanity, energy & well being.
Just recently I came to the realization that I am in control of my own happiness and in order to do so I must move towards and surround myself with positive and uplifting people.
Just recnetly I have come to realize that I do indeed need to trust and follow my instincts, they are true and they do not lie. I need to move away from the people and the things tht hurt me and move towards those that make me feel good and that I know are people I can trust. this could be one of the best things I could ever do for myslef.
I cannot be happy being around negative, jealous, inconsiderat, selfish uncaring people.
When dealing with toxic people, excercise is my best friend, it relieves both mental and physical tension, excersie helps produce healing chemicals that will repair my body and help me think more clearly. excercise also helps release endorphins , chemicals that relieve pain and help you feel good both emotionally and physically.
Toxic relationships: Most of us struggle with a toxic relationship at one point in our life and we do not even realize how toxic they are, we find these relationships hard to let go because they are addictive, these relationships are non productive and non reinforcing for us.
You become a chronic fixer, rescuer and enabler, this relationship has the power to impact your feelings about yourself. it is a relationship in which you are manipulated and conned. The guilt is a mojor motivating factor from becoming detached and allowing yourself to ley go.
Iy is a relationship where "Your" needs and wants are never addressed.
You need to realize that you are a person who deserves healthy wholesome energy, you deserve to be loved and appreciated, do not ever allow any person, place or thing to effect or impact your feelings for yourself.
You need to let go, to fear less and love yourslef more.
I have been effected by toxic foods, toxic people and been in toxic relationships.
Until now, this journey has allowed me to see that I need to do this for myself, I need to learn to love myself again, I need to find my inner beauty again and I need to find out who Tamra is, not who the woman, the toxic people in my life have wanted, needed and demanded me to be.
I am in charge of my own happiness, my own survival and my own future.
I have started finding me, it has been so long I was not sure if that person could be found again, but with all the toxins out of my body/life, I am succeeding.
I have chosen now to only have healthy/positive foods, excercise, people and relationships in my life.
I deserve it!!!!!!
Thank you to all the positive/loving people in my life and my love for life, I will survive and I will succeed.
T
We all know what toxic foods & poisons are.
Toxic people: unfortunatly we all have at least one toxic person in our life and until we stop allowing this person(s) to hurt us, they will continue to do so.
Only you have the power to stop this person and you do so by controlling your own actions and reactions, you cannot control the actions of others. bu the good thing is you and only you have the power to control yourself and your life. You have the power to wlk away and to not allow these people in your life anymore, Freedom is an awesome thing. If you allow it these people have the ability to drain you of your heath, sanity, energy & well being.
Just recently I came to the realization that I am in control of my own happiness and in order to do so I must move towards and surround myself with positive and uplifting people.
Just recnetly I have come to realize that I do indeed need to trust and follow my instincts, they are true and they do not lie. I need to move away from the people and the things tht hurt me and move towards those that make me feel good and that I know are people I can trust. this could be one of the best things I could ever do for myslef.
I cannot be happy being around negative, jealous, inconsiderat, selfish uncaring people.
When dealing with toxic people, excercise is my best friend, it relieves both mental and physical tension, excersie helps produce healing chemicals that will repair my body and help me think more clearly. excercise also helps release endorphins , chemicals that relieve pain and help you feel good both emotionally and physically.
Toxic relationships: Most of us struggle with a toxic relationship at one point in our life and we do not even realize how toxic they are, we find these relationships hard to let go because they are addictive, these relationships are non productive and non reinforcing for us.
You become a chronic fixer, rescuer and enabler, this relationship has the power to impact your feelings about yourself. it is a relationship in which you are manipulated and conned. The guilt is a mojor motivating factor from becoming detached and allowing yourself to ley go.
Iy is a relationship where "Your" needs and wants are never addressed.
You need to realize that you are a person who deserves healthy wholesome energy, you deserve to be loved and appreciated, do not ever allow any person, place or thing to effect or impact your feelings for yourself.
You need to let go, to fear less and love yourslef more.
I have been effected by toxic foods, toxic people and been in toxic relationships.
Until now, this journey has allowed me to see that I need to do this for myself, I need to learn to love myself again, I need to find my inner beauty again and I need to find out who Tamra is, not who the woman, the toxic people in my life have wanted, needed and demanded me to be.
I am in charge of my own happiness, my own survival and my own future.
I have started finding me, it has been so long I was not sure if that person could be found again, but with all the toxins out of my body/life, I am succeeding.
I have chosen now to only have healthy/positive foods, excercise, people and relationships in my life.
I deserve it!!!!!!
Thank you to all the positive/loving people in my life and my love for life, I will survive and I will succeed.
T
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Weight & Relationships
Good Evening:
Kind of a lazy saturday, went and did Cardio w/my BFF Jen today.
It was awesome, went to Eastmont Golds arounf noon, it was like a ghost town, hardly anyone there.
After a good qorkout came home and was acrually looking forward to my 8 oz's of protien and my cup of brown rice.
Last week and this week I am on 1400 calories and starting next week down to 1200.
I am feeling so awesome and it is so funny how much better one feels after working out.
Jen and I are going to go in the morning again.
As those of you who know me, know.....I have not been successfull at all in relationships, I have always felt I was a very confident BBW. And I have been very independent and sure of myself.
As I stated before I have always chose men whom I felt needed me to tke care of them.
I had a good friend say something to me a few months ago, that somewhat bruised my ego...she said perhaps I always chose this type of man, perhaps because I felt deep down that I never deserved better and that in order to allow myself to be with someone who would love me and care for me, i would first need to love myself.
I thought at first...what the hell is she talking about... I love myself and I have never had any problem getting a date or having a man in my life.
But 3 weeks ago I came to the realization....SHE IS RIGHT!
My MO has always been to find a man I can care for, to buy things for, to do things for and who I felt needed me. And if an idependent man, able to take care and do for himslef, financially independant, love me for me kind of guy ever showed any interest in me....scart the heck out of me, I would always find little things that I felt bothered me about him... I knw now tht this was my way of not being interested in him.
I have heard comments from a few peope since starting this challenge....you will be amazed at all the men that are going to be looking at you, paying attention to you and be interested in you after you start working out and getting fit.
My thought was.. the hell w/them if they dont like me the say I am now, they do not deserve to have me.
But I realized something after the 2nd week of my diet and my working out....it wasnt ever rally that it was because necessarly becasuse I would be getting skinny and slender or that I would be prettier once I lost weight. But it is because in losing the weight, dieting, eating healthier and working out and getting fit, I am starting to find me again, I am so happy inside and out, I am so much more confident and bubbly, fun and more attractive inside, which changes the whole way I look on the outside to others.
When you are happy and healthy on the inside it carries through, it transfers and shows on the outside, both physiclly, menatlly and emotionally.
You feel sexy, you feel confident and you take such pride in yourself and the way you are caring for yourself and it is seen by those around you.
I know now that I deserve this, I need this and first and foremost......I am in Love....yes in Love.....I am in love with myself again for the first itme since I do not even remember.
<:AtomicElement>In closing, I would like to Thank everyone who loved me before and I want to invite you on this beautiful journey....but most important take time out each and every day and learn to love yourself again....
<:AtomicElement>Good night and sweet dreams
<:AtomicElement>T
Kind of a lazy saturday, went and did Cardio w/my BFF Jen today.
It was awesome, went to Eastmont Golds arounf noon, it was like a ghost town, hardly anyone there.
After a good qorkout came home and was acrually looking forward to my 8 oz's of protien and my cup of brown rice.
Last week and this week I am on 1400 calories and starting next week down to 1200.
I am feeling so awesome and it is so funny how much better one feels after working out.
Jen and I are going to go in the morning again.
As those of you who know me, know.....I have not been successfull at all in relationships, I have always felt I was a very confident BBW. And I have been very independent and sure of myself.
As I stated before I have always chose men whom I felt needed me to tke care of them.
I had a good friend say something to me a few months ago, that somewhat bruised my ego...she said perhaps I always chose this type of man, perhaps because I felt deep down that I never deserved better and that in order to allow myself to be with someone who would love me and care for me, i would first need to love myself.
I thought at first...what the hell is she talking about... I love myself and I have never had any problem getting a date or having a man in my life.
But 3 weeks ago I came to the realization....SHE IS RIGHT!
My MO has always been to find a man I can care for, to buy things for, to do things for and who I felt needed me. And if an idependent man, able to take care and do for himslef, financially independant, love me for me kind of guy ever showed any interest in me....scart the heck out of me, I would always find little things that I felt bothered me about him... I knw now tht this was my way of not being interested in him.
I have heard comments from a few peope since starting this challenge....you will be amazed at all the men that are going to be looking at you, paying attention to you and be interested in you after you start working out and getting fit.
My thought was.. the hell w/them if they dont like me the say I am now, they do not deserve to have me.
But I realized something after the 2nd week of my diet and my working out....it wasnt ever rally that it was because necessarly becasuse I would be getting skinny and slender or that I would be prettier once I lost weight. But it is because in losing the weight, dieting, eating healthier and working out and getting fit, I am starting to find me again, I am so happy inside and out, I am so much more confident and bubbly, fun and more attractive inside, which changes the whole way I look on the outside to others.
When you are happy and healthy on the inside it carries through, it transfers and shows on the outside, both physiclly, menatlly and emotionally.
You feel sexy, you feel confident and you take such pride in yourself and the way you are caring for yourself and it is seen by those around you.
I know now that I deserve this, I need this and first and foremost......I am in Love....yes in Love.....I am in love with myself again for the first itme since I do not even remember.
<:AtomicElement>In closing, I would like to Thank everyone who loved me before and I want to invite you on this beautiful journey....but most important take time out each and every day and learn to love yourself again....
<:AtomicElement>Good night and sweet dreams
<:AtomicElement>T
Thursday, January 28, 2010
The Diet everyone dreams of.
Hey Everyone:
Wow another week alkmost over, unfortunatly dieting does not take the weekend off.
Neither does excercise. Got to meet the one last team member on my team, everyone is a kool bunch of people.
I thought tonight I would cover the diet that John my trainer has put me on...I know...I know, you all have been waiting patiently to hear what it is, but I can tell you, that you are all going to be pretty dissapointed, lol.....it is nothing glamerious at all.
I am going to give you the first 2 weeks tonight........pretty simple 1600 calories.
Hold on though, I am sure you are thinking the same as I am, 1600 calories...ok a big mac is 540 calories and 29 grams of fat.....hey I am good to go, I can eat at least 2 a day and make up the diff in my remainding calories with ice cream or potatoe chips, wow this is going to be a piece of cake(no pun intended).
Stop right there, just because I can have 1600 calories every day for the first 2 weeks, does not mean I get to chose my calorie intake consumption.....nope...notta...obsolutyl, posativly not... My trainer John chose this scrumptious diet for me, yeah whatever.
What is the saying, what doesnt kill us will only make us stronger, for the love of god I hope so.
Meal #1: 1 scoop(comes in the protien powder) protien powder , 1 1/2 scoops dry oatmeal and 1 teas flax seed oil, put in a blender with 8 ounces water and some ice, blend until smooth then pour in a chilled glass and drink.
Meal#2: 1 1/2 cup brown rice(or a small red potatoe), 4 ounces protien(turkey, fish or chicken) baked or broiled, 1 1/2 cups salad, dressing consists of 1 teas olive oil, 1 teas balsamic vinegar and 1 teas lemon juice
Meal #3: the same as meal#1
Meal #4 same guidlines as meal #2
Meal #5 1/2 cup lo fat cottage cheese
That is is for every day for 2 weeks
You can do a carb overload on Tuesday & Thursday.......are you ready for this.....add another 1/2 cup brown rice to your meal #2 & #4......I know, i couldnt believe it either,LMAO.
You can season w/Mrs. Dash or Molly Mcbutter, but no salt, garlic salt etc.
And also drink 1 Gal water every day.
Well this is the diet of the girl with champagne & Caviar dreams on a tap water budget, WOW I am sooooo glad he chose all this water, I wouldnt have been able to afford to eat on a more extravigant diet, something tells me I would have found a way thoug.
More than anything this diet teachs you that the whole thing behind the success of this diet is discipline & self control.
Well it is 10:26 and I have to get up at 4 am to head to o the gym.
Aw, I remember my younger years when I could stay up partying all night, come home in time to take a shower change cloths and go to work and do it all over again.
I am sure my Mom remembers this, I have been fired from only one job in my life, I handled it fairly well, but what really sucked is it was my Mom who fired me(this would be a whole other blog, LOL). Dang Mom, where's the love.
Just kidding Mom, I love you Mom, you are my best friend and have always been there for me through all the trials and tribulations, through the good, the bad and the ugly.(this also is a whole other blog entry)
Good night everyone and sweet dreams, let me know if you would like to hang with me at the gym at 5 am, the more the merrier.
Tam
Wow another week alkmost over, unfortunatly dieting does not take the weekend off.
Neither does excercise. Got to meet the one last team member on my team, everyone is a kool bunch of people.
I thought tonight I would cover the diet that John my trainer has put me on...I know...I know, you all have been waiting patiently to hear what it is, but I can tell you, that you are all going to be pretty dissapointed, lol.....it is nothing glamerious at all.
I am going to give you the first 2 weeks tonight........pretty simple 1600 calories.
Hold on though, I am sure you are thinking the same as I am, 1600 calories...ok a big mac is 540 calories and 29 grams of fat.....hey I am good to go, I can eat at least 2 a day and make up the diff in my remainding calories with ice cream or potatoe chips, wow this is going to be a piece of cake(no pun intended).
Stop right there, just because I can have 1600 calories every day for the first 2 weeks, does not mean I get to chose my calorie intake consumption.....nope...notta...obsolutyl, posativly not... My trainer John chose this scrumptious diet for me, yeah whatever.
What is the saying, what doesnt kill us will only make us stronger, for the love of god I hope so.
Meal #1: 1 scoop(comes in the protien powder) protien powder , 1 1/2 scoops dry oatmeal and 1 teas flax seed oil, put in a blender with 8 ounces water and some ice, blend until smooth then pour in a chilled glass and drink.
Meal#2: 1 1/2 cup brown rice(or a small red potatoe), 4 ounces protien(turkey, fish or chicken) baked or broiled, 1 1/2 cups salad, dressing consists of 1 teas olive oil, 1 teas balsamic vinegar and 1 teas lemon juice
Meal #3: the same as meal#1
Meal #4 same guidlines as meal #2
Meal #5 1/2 cup lo fat cottage cheese
That is is for every day for 2 weeks
You can do a carb overload on Tuesday & Thursday.......are you ready for this.....add another 1/2 cup brown rice to your meal #2 & #4......I know, i couldnt believe it either,LMAO.
You can season w/Mrs. Dash or Molly Mcbutter, but no salt, garlic salt etc.
And also drink 1 Gal water every day.
Well this is the diet of the girl with champagne & Caviar dreams on a tap water budget, WOW I am sooooo glad he chose all this water, I wouldnt have been able to afford to eat on a more extravigant diet, something tells me I would have found a way thoug.
More than anything this diet teachs you that the whole thing behind the success of this diet is discipline & self control.
Well it is 10:26 and I have to get up at 4 am to head to o the gym.
Aw, I remember my younger years when I could stay up partying all night, come home in time to take a shower change cloths and go to work and do it all over again.
I am sure my Mom remembers this, I have been fired from only one job in my life, I handled it fairly well, but what really sucked is it was my Mom who fired me(this would be a whole other blog, LOL). Dang Mom, where's the love.
Just kidding Mom, I love you Mom, you are my best friend and have always been there for me through all the trials and tribulations, through the good, the bad and the ugly.(this also is a whole other blog entry)
Good night everyone and sweet dreams, let me know if you would like to hang with me at the gym at 5 am, the more the merrier.
Tam
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Hey everyone:
Well I have survived yet another day. Went to the gym tonight instead of early this morning.
I think I prefer getting up at 4:30 and hitting the gym at 5 am, it is alot easier than working all day and then having to go work out.
Did you know that there are 128 ounces of water in a gallon.....but of course you know this....but did you really care? I didnt until my trainer told me I am to drink 1 gal of water a day....UGH, that is 16 8oz glasses a day....which breaks down to....if I am figuring this correctly, i need to drink at least 8 ozs of water every hour I am awake. I never really saw it that way, but when you have a goal of all tht water, you see it in a whole new light, I am working on moving my office into the restroom.
But I am actually drinking more water than my trainer asked of me, I drink 33.8 ounces during my 55 minutes of cardio and 3 more 33.8 ounce bottles every day.
I am such a good girl, I am drinking a total of 135.2 ounces a day...Yeaaaaaaaaaa.
Well I amgoing to cut this short tonight, it is almost 10pm and I get up at 4am, so I try to get in bed by 9:30.....I am late.
Nighty Night and we will chat again tomorrow night.
T
Well I have survived yet another day. Went to the gym tonight instead of early this morning.
I think I prefer getting up at 4:30 and hitting the gym at 5 am, it is alot easier than working all day and then having to go work out.
Did you know that there are 128 ounces of water in a gallon.....but of course you know this....but did you really care? I didnt until my trainer told me I am to drink 1 gal of water a day....UGH, that is 16 8oz glasses a day....which breaks down to....if I am figuring this correctly, i need to drink at least 8 ozs of water every hour I am awake. I never really saw it that way, but when you have a goal of all tht water, you see it in a whole new light, I am working on moving my office into the restroom.
But I am actually drinking more water than my trainer asked of me, I drink 33.8 ounces during my 55 minutes of cardio and 3 more 33.8 ounce bottles every day.
I am such a good girl, I am drinking a total of 135.2 ounces a day...Yeaaaaaaaaaa.
Well I amgoing to cut this short tonight, it is almost 10pm and I get up at 4am, so I try to get in bed by 9:30.....I am late.
Nighty Night and we will chat again tomorrow night.
T
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Yet Another Day
Good Evening:
You know every day is a chalenge when it comes to dieting. Let alone the little curves that life has to throw your way.
Tonight I get home, to find in my mail a notice from the landlord...guess what my rent will now go up another $300.00, wow everytime I turn around they are sticking it to me, I know they want me out, so they cn collect more rent. They can do what they want, because they are not going to conquer, these everyday obsticles are not going to cause me to fail in this chalenge.
Each day it gets a little easier. I had a friend who is an employee of GNC, but he also is a body builder and competes, he got 4th place in Vegas in the Muscle Mania challenge and he kniws his stuff. To start off he got me on my work out program, 55 minutes of cardio 6 days a week, however I try to fit it in 7 days a week. I do the Arc for 15, the pedal machine 30 and finish of the workout on the treadmill. John(my friend from GNC) pretty much guaranteed me if I followed the workout, the diet and take the suppliments, I should lose 50-60 lbs, by the end of the 12 week challenge. Check out myblog each day and I will cover the diet, the workout, the suppliments, the vitamins and the success I am going to hsave in this journey. Thank you for all of you that lovr and believe in me. T
You know every day is a chalenge when it comes to dieting. Let alone the little curves that life has to throw your way.
Tonight I get home, to find in my mail a notice from the landlord...guess what my rent will now go up another $300.00, wow everytime I turn around they are sticking it to me, I know they want me out, so they cn collect more rent. They can do what they want, because they are not going to conquer, these everyday obsticles are not going to cause me to fail in this chalenge.
Each day it gets a little easier. I had a friend who is an employee of GNC, but he also is a body builder and competes, he got 4th place in Vegas in the Muscle Mania challenge and he kniws his stuff. To start off he got me on my work out program, 55 minutes of cardio 6 days a week, however I try to fit it in 7 days a week. I do the Arc for 15, the pedal machine 30 and finish of the workout on the treadmill. John(my friend from GNC) pretty much guaranteed me if I followed the workout, the diet and take the suppliments, I should lose 50-60 lbs, by the end of the 12 week challenge. Check out myblog each day and I will cover the diet, the workout, the suppliments, the vitamins and the success I am going to hsave in this journey. Thank you for all of you that lovr and believe in me. T
Monday, January 25, 2010
The Begining........
Lord knows I am not an expert on on relationships or dieting.But I have had alot of friends ask me to blog about this weight loss journey that I am experiencing.And i thought I would add a little about my experiences with relationships, men, dating along with some humerious story's. All this will be true not fiction, howver it may sound like something out of a comedy at times and others something out of a drama, LOL.As most of you know I won a local radio contest weight loss contest...KKRV 97.7, I heard about it from a girl I worked with.I sent in a picture along with an essay as to why I would be a good canidate for the contest and why I should be chosen. I will post my letter on a later blog. I entered on Tuesday night at 10 PM and they called me next morning at 9 AM, they asked if the could interview me on the radio, I agreed and while we were on the air, Jaxson chose me to be on a team.The contest consists of weekly weigh ins through the radio station every Fridy, the do a live remote at Golds Gym and weigh you and and talk w/you on the air and announce your progress while talking with you on the air. You are also a member of a team of 3, there are two teams, we compete against each other.The radio station gives away weekly prizes and they also pay for your membership at Golds Gym and pays your entry into the Golds Gym Challenge.We weighed in last Friday for the first time since the initial weigh in , I lost 16 lbs. my 29 yr old workout partner who is on my team lost 26 nlbs. Our team is currently ahead by 4 lbs.I have been a skinny woman living in a BBW body for mny years. Don't get me wrong, I am a very confident BBW, but I also know I need to be healthy and I have come to realize alot of choices I have made regarding the men in my life and relationships have not been healthy for me.I have always felt the need to be with a man who needs me to take care of him, I was never attracted or interested in a man who I felt didn't need me. Whenever a man hasdcome into my life who had their shit together and would have been good to me and good for me, I would "ALWAYS" find a reason not to be attracted to them. A friend said something to me a month or so ago, at first I thought she didn't know what she was talking about and then.....taaaa daaaaa.......she was right.....I have never allowed the man I would consider to be my "Mr. Right" to get close to me because, I did not feel deep down inside I deserved him..........WOW, hello.........that has been my MO for years now.As of 2 weeks ago, I felt all of the above and then it was like someone had lifted the fog and I could see everything clear. I had been my own enabler, always taking care of eveyone else, helping complete strangers, always like I was trying to buy their love and their friendship.I started this journey 2 weeks ago, taking care of myself, finally putting myslef before eveyone else, doing for me, what no one esle could do for me, but me myself. Becoming healthy, loving myself, allowing me to be happy and not feeling the need to continously taking care of some man in my life.I feel like I have been reborn, I get up at 4:15 AM Mon-Fri and get to the GYM before they open , I work out for an hour and I also work out Saturday and/or Sunday for an hour.Starting this week I weill also be doing strenghthing 3 nights a week. I have changed my diet completly and i am feeling frickin awesome. I lost 16lbs last week and my goal is to lose 60lbs at the end of the twelve weeks, when the contest ends.I will every day blog about my diet, my workout, my progress and past experiences that have gone on in my life. I will brutally honest and If there is anything you would like to ask me, please feel free to ask.I am not blogging this because I think that I am all that, but because I hope there are women out rhere who can maybe learn from my mistakes, cry with me, laugh with me and come along the ride with me and my success. Until tomorrrow my friends.......Tam
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Intro To My Blog
Hello Everyone, I decided to start this blog because of this wonderfull opportunity I have been given to start a new healthier life, a chance to find the real me again, the fun, happy, funny me.
You will probably hear me do alot of whining, complaining and frustration, LOL
I am sure that would be the emotional feelings felt by any one who has spent their life living an unhealthy life for so many years and then to have this gift of being given the chance to start taking care of myself and putting myself first after all these years of feeling the need to take care of everyone before myself.
You will probably hear me do alot of whining, complaining and frustration, LOL
I am sure that would be the emotional feelings felt by any one who has spent their life living an unhealthy life for so many years and then to have this gift of being given the chance to start taking care of myself and putting myself first after all these years of feeling the need to take care of everyone before myself.
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