Good Evening:
Kind of a lazy saturday, went and did Cardio w/my BFF Jen today.
It was awesome, went to Eastmont Golds arounf noon, it was like a ghost town, hardly anyone there.
After a good qorkout came home and was acrually looking forward to my 8 oz's of protien and my cup of brown rice.
Last week and this week I am on 1400 calories and starting next week down to 1200.
I am feeling so awesome and it is so funny how much better one feels after working out.
Jen and I are going to go in the morning again.
As those of you who know me, know.....I have not been successfull at all in relationships, I have always felt I was a very confident BBW. And I have been very independent and sure of myself.
As I stated before I have always chose men whom I felt needed me to tke care of them.
I had a good friend say something to me a few months ago, that somewhat bruised my ego...she said perhaps I always chose this type of man, perhaps because I felt deep down that I never deserved better and that in order to allow myself to be with someone who would love me and care for me, i would first need to love myself.
I thought at first...what the hell is she talking about... I love myself and I have never had any problem getting a date or having a man in my life.
But 3 weeks ago I came to the realization....SHE IS RIGHT!
My MO has always been to find a man I can care for, to buy things for, to do things for and who I felt needed me. And if an idependent man, able to take care and do for himslef, financially independant, love me for me kind of guy ever showed any interest in me....scart the heck out of me, I would always find little things that I felt bothered me about him... I knw now tht this was my way of not being interested in him.
I have heard comments from a few peope since starting this challenge....you will be amazed at all the men that are going to be looking at you, paying attention to you and be interested in you after you start working out and getting fit.
My thought was.. the hell w/them if they dont like me the say I am now, they do not deserve to have me.
But I realized something after the 2nd week of my diet and my working out....it wasnt ever rally that it was because necessarly becasuse I would be getting skinny and slender or that I would be prettier once I lost weight. But it is because in losing the weight, dieting, eating healthier and working out and getting fit, I am starting to find me again, I am so happy inside and out, I am so much more confident and bubbly, fun and more attractive inside, which changes the whole way I look on the outside to others.
When you are happy and healthy on the inside it carries through, it transfers and shows on the outside, both physiclly, menatlly and emotionally.
You feel sexy, you feel confident and you take such pride in yourself and the way you are caring for yourself and it is seen by those around you.
I know now that I deserve this, I need this and first and foremost......I am in Love....yes in Love.....I am in love with myself again for the first itme since I do not even remember.
<:AtomicElement>In closing, I would like to Thank everyone who loved me before and I want to invite you on this beautiful journey....but most important take time out each and every day and learn to love yourself again....
<:AtomicElement>Good night and sweet dreams
<:AtomicElement>T
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
The Diet everyone dreams of.
Hey Everyone:
Wow another week alkmost over, unfortunatly dieting does not take the weekend off.
Neither does excercise. Got to meet the one last team member on my team, everyone is a kool bunch of people.
I thought tonight I would cover the diet that John my trainer has put me on...I know...I know, you all have been waiting patiently to hear what it is, but I can tell you, that you are all going to be pretty dissapointed, lol.....it is nothing glamerious at all.
I am going to give you the first 2 weeks tonight........pretty simple 1600 calories.
Hold on though, I am sure you are thinking the same as I am, 1600 calories...ok a big mac is 540 calories and 29 grams of fat.....hey I am good to go, I can eat at least 2 a day and make up the diff in my remainding calories with ice cream or potatoe chips, wow this is going to be a piece of cake(no pun intended).
Stop right there, just because I can have 1600 calories every day for the first 2 weeks, does not mean I get to chose my calorie intake consumption.....nope...notta...obsolutyl, posativly not... My trainer John chose this scrumptious diet for me, yeah whatever.
What is the saying, what doesnt kill us will only make us stronger, for the love of god I hope so.
Meal #1: 1 scoop(comes in the protien powder) protien powder , 1 1/2 scoops dry oatmeal and 1 teas flax seed oil, put in a blender with 8 ounces water and some ice, blend until smooth then pour in a chilled glass and drink.
Meal#2: 1 1/2 cup brown rice(or a small red potatoe), 4 ounces protien(turkey, fish or chicken) baked or broiled, 1 1/2 cups salad, dressing consists of 1 teas olive oil, 1 teas balsamic vinegar and 1 teas lemon juice
Meal #3: the same as meal#1
Meal #4 same guidlines as meal #2
Meal #5 1/2 cup lo fat cottage cheese
That is is for every day for 2 weeks
You can do a carb overload on Tuesday & Thursday.......are you ready for this.....add another 1/2 cup brown rice to your meal #2 & #4......I know, i couldnt believe it either,LMAO.
You can season w/Mrs. Dash or Molly Mcbutter, but no salt, garlic salt etc.
And also drink 1 Gal water every day.
Well this is the diet of the girl with champagne & Caviar dreams on a tap water budget, WOW I am sooooo glad he chose all this water, I wouldnt have been able to afford to eat on a more extravigant diet, something tells me I would have found a way thoug.
More than anything this diet teachs you that the whole thing behind the success of this diet is discipline & self control.
Well it is 10:26 and I have to get up at 4 am to head to o the gym.
Aw, I remember my younger years when I could stay up partying all night, come home in time to take a shower change cloths and go to work and do it all over again.
I am sure my Mom remembers this, I have been fired from only one job in my life, I handled it fairly well, but what really sucked is it was my Mom who fired me(this would be a whole other blog, LOL). Dang Mom, where's the love.
Just kidding Mom, I love you Mom, you are my best friend and have always been there for me through all the trials and tribulations, through the good, the bad and the ugly.(this also is a whole other blog entry)
Good night everyone and sweet dreams, let me know if you would like to hang with me at the gym at 5 am, the more the merrier.
Tam
Wow another week alkmost over, unfortunatly dieting does not take the weekend off.
Neither does excercise. Got to meet the one last team member on my team, everyone is a kool bunch of people.
I thought tonight I would cover the diet that John my trainer has put me on...I know...I know, you all have been waiting patiently to hear what it is, but I can tell you, that you are all going to be pretty dissapointed, lol.....it is nothing glamerious at all.
I am going to give you the first 2 weeks tonight........pretty simple 1600 calories.
Hold on though, I am sure you are thinking the same as I am, 1600 calories...ok a big mac is 540 calories and 29 grams of fat.....hey I am good to go, I can eat at least 2 a day and make up the diff in my remainding calories with ice cream or potatoe chips, wow this is going to be a piece of cake(no pun intended).
Stop right there, just because I can have 1600 calories every day for the first 2 weeks, does not mean I get to chose my calorie intake consumption.....nope...notta...obsolutyl, posativly not... My trainer John chose this scrumptious diet for me, yeah whatever.
What is the saying, what doesnt kill us will only make us stronger, for the love of god I hope so.
Meal #1: 1 scoop(comes in the protien powder) protien powder , 1 1/2 scoops dry oatmeal and 1 teas flax seed oil, put in a blender with 8 ounces water and some ice, blend until smooth then pour in a chilled glass and drink.
Meal#2: 1 1/2 cup brown rice(or a small red potatoe), 4 ounces protien(turkey, fish or chicken) baked or broiled, 1 1/2 cups salad, dressing consists of 1 teas olive oil, 1 teas balsamic vinegar and 1 teas lemon juice
Meal #3: the same as meal#1
Meal #4 same guidlines as meal #2
Meal #5 1/2 cup lo fat cottage cheese
That is is for every day for 2 weeks
You can do a carb overload on Tuesday & Thursday.......are you ready for this.....add another 1/2 cup brown rice to your meal #2 & #4......I know, i couldnt believe it either,LMAO.
You can season w/Mrs. Dash or Molly Mcbutter, but no salt, garlic salt etc.
And also drink 1 Gal water every day.
Well this is the diet of the girl with champagne & Caviar dreams on a tap water budget, WOW I am sooooo glad he chose all this water, I wouldnt have been able to afford to eat on a more extravigant diet, something tells me I would have found a way thoug.
More than anything this diet teachs you that the whole thing behind the success of this diet is discipline & self control.
Well it is 10:26 and I have to get up at 4 am to head to o the gym.
Aw, I remember my younger years when I could stay up partying all night, come home in time to take a shower change cloths and go to work and do it all over again.
I am sure my Mom remembers this, I have been fired from only one job in my life, I handled it fairly well, but what really sucked is it was my Mom who fired me(this would be a whole other blog, LOL). Dang Mom, where's the love.
Just kidding Mom, I love you Mom, you are my best friend and have always been there for me through all the trials and tribulations, through the good, the bad and the ugly.(this also is a whole other blog entry)
Good night everyone and sweet dreams, let me know if you would like to hang with me at the gym at 5 am, the more the merrier.
Tam
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Hey everyone:
Well I have survived yet another day. Went to the gym tonight instead of early this morning.
I think I prefer getting up at 4:30 and hitting the gym at 5 am, it is alot easier than working all day and then having to go work out.
Did you know that there are 128 ounces of water in a gallon.....but of course you know this....but did you really care? I didnt until my trainer told me I am to drink 1 gal of water a day....UGH, that is 16 8oz glasses a day....which breaks down to....if I am figuring this correctly, i need to drink at least 8 ozs of water every hour I am awake. I never really saw it that way, but when you have a goal of all tht water, you see it in a whole new light, I am working on moving my office into the restroom.
But I am actually drinking more water than my trainer asked of me, I drink 33.8 ounces during my 55 minutes of cardio and 3 more 33.8 ounce bottles every day.
I am such a good girl, I am drinking a total of 135.2 ounces a day...Yeaaaaaaaaaa.
Well I amgoing to cut this short tonight, it is almost 10pm and I get up at 4am, so I try to get in bed by 9:30.....I am late.
Nighty Night and we will chat again tomorrow night.
T
Well I have survived yet another day. Went to the gym tonight instead of early this morning.
I think I prefer getting up at 4:30 and hitting the gym at 5 am, it is alot easier than working all day and then having to go work out.
Did you know that there are 128 ounces of water in a gallon.....but of course you know this....but did you really care? I didnt until my trainer told me I am to drink 1 gal of water a day....UGH, that is 16 8oz glasses a day....which breaks down to....if I am figuring this correctly, i need to drink at least 8 ozs of water every hour I am awake. I never really saw it that way, but when you have a goal of all tht water, you see it in a whole new light, I am working on moving my office into the restroom.
But I am actually drinking more water than my trainer asked of me, I drink 33.8 ounces during my 55 minutes of cardio and 3 more 33.8 ounce bottles every day.
I am such a good girl, I am drinking a total of 135.2 ounces a day...Yeaaaaaaaaaa.
Well I amgoing to cut this short tonight, it is almost 10pm and I get up at 4am, so I try to get in bed by 9:30.....I am late.
Nighty Night and we will chat again tomorrow night.
T
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Yet Another Day
Good Evening:
You know every day is a chalenge when it comes to dieting. Let alone the little curves that life has to throw your way.
Tonight I get home, to find in my mail a notice from the landlord...guess what my rent will now go up another $300.00, wow everytime I turn around they are sticking it to me, I know they want me out, so they cn collect more rent. They can do what they want, because they are not going to conquer, these everyday obsticles are not going to cause me to fail in this chalenge.
Each day it gets a little easier. I had a friend who is an employee of GNC, but he also is a body builder and competes, he got 4th place in Vegas in the Muscle Mania challenge and he kniws his stuff. To start off he got me on my work out program, 55 minutes of cardio 6 days a week, however I try to fit it in 7 days a week. I do the Arc for 15, the pedal machine 30 and finish of the workout on the treadmill. John(my friend from GNC) pretty much guaranteed me if I followed the workout, the diet and take the suppliments, I should lose 50-60 lbs, by the end of the 12 week challenge. Check out myblog each day and I will cover the diet, the workout, the suppliments, the vitamins and the success I am going to hsave in this journey. Thank you for all of you that lovr and believe in me. T
You know every day is a chalenge when it comes to dieting. Let alone the little curves that life has to throw your way.
Tonight I get home, to find in my mail a notice from the landlord...guess what my rent will now go up another $300.00, wow everytime I turn around they are sticking it to me, I know they want me out, so they cn collect more rent. They can do what they want, because they are not going to conquer, these everyday obsticles are not going to cause me to fail in this chalenge.
Each day it gets a little easier. I had a friend who is an employee of GNC, but he also is a body builder and competes, he got 4th place in Vegas in the Muscle Mania challenge and he kniws his stuff. To start off he got me on my work out program, 55 minutes of cardio 6 days a week, however I try to fit it in 7 days a week. I do the Arc for 15, the pedal machine 30 and finish of the workout on the treadmill. John(my friend from GNC) pretty much guaranteed me if I followed the workout, the diet and take the suppliments, I should lose 50-60 lbs, by the end of the 12 week challenge. Check out myblog each day and I will cover the diet, the workout, the suppliments, the vitamins and the success I am going to hsave in this journey. Thank you for all of you that lovr and believe in me. T
Monday, January 25, 2010
The Begining........
Lord knows I am not an expert on on relationships or dieting.But I have had alot of friends ask me to blog about this weight loss journey that I am experiencing.And i thought I would add a little about my experiences with relationships, men, dating along with some humerious story's. All this will be true not fiction, howver it may sound like something out of a comedy at times and others something out of a drama, LOL.As most of you know I won a local radio contest weight loss contest...KKRV 97.7, I heard about it from a girl I worked with.I sent in a picture along with an essay as to why I would be a good canidate for the contest and why I should be chosen. I will post my letter on a later blog. I entered on Tuesday night at 10 PM and they called me next morning at 9 AM, they asked if the could interview me on the radio, I agreed and while we were on the air, Jaxson chose me to be on a team.The contest consists of weekly weigh ins through the radio station every Fridy, the do a live remote at Golds Gym and weigh you and and talk w/you on the air and announce your progress while talking with you on the air. You are also a member of a team of 3, there are two teams, we compete against each other.The radio station gives away weekly prizes and they also pay for your membership at Golds Gym and pays your entry into the Golds Gym Challenge.We weighed in last Friday for the first time since the initial weigh in , I lost 16 lbs. my 29 yr old workout partner who is on my team lost 26 nlbs. Our team is currently ahead by 4 lbs.I have been a skinny woman living in a BBW body for mny years. Don't get me wrong, I am a very confident BBW, but I also know I need to be healthy and I have come to realize alot of choices I have made regarding the men in my life and relationships have not been healthy for me.I have always felt the need to be with a man who needs me to take care of him, I was never attracted or interested in a man who I felt didn't need me. Whenever a man hasdcome into my life who had their shit together and would have been good to me and good for me, I would "ALWAYS" find a reason not to be attracted to them. A friend said something to me a month or so ago, at first I thought she didn't know what she was talking about and then.....taaaa daaaaa.......she was right.....I have never allowed the man I would consider to be my "Mr. Right" to get close to me because, I did not feel deep down inside I deserved him..........WOW, hello.........that has been my MO for years now.As of 2 weeks ago, I felt all of the above and then it was like someone had lifted the fog and I could see everything clear. I had been my own enabler, always taking care of eveyone else, helping complete strangers, always like I was trying to buy their love and their friendship.I started this journey 2 weeks ago, taking care of myself, finally putting myslef before eveyone else, doing for me, what no one esle could do for me, but me myself. Becoming healthy, loving myself, allowing me to be happy and not feeling the need to continously taking care of some man in my life.I feel like I have been reborn, I get up at 4:15 AM Mon-Fri and get to the GYM before they open , I work out for an hour and I also work out Saturday and/or Sunday for an hour.Starting this week I weill also be doing strenghthing 3 nights a week. I have changed my diet completly and i am feeling frickin awesome. I lost 16lbs last week and my goal is to lose 60lbs at the end of the twelve weeks, when the contest ends.I will every day blog about my diet, my workout, my progress and past experiences that have gone on in my life. I will brutally honest and If there is anything you would like to ask me, please feel free to ask.I am not blogging this because I think that I am all that, but because I hope there are women out rhere who can maybe learn from my mistakes, cry with me, laugh with me and come along the ride with me and my success. Until tomorrrow my friends.......Tam
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Intro To My Blog
Hello Everyone, I decided to start this blog because of this wonderfull opportunity I have been given to start a new healthier life, a chance to find the real me again, the fun, happy, funny me.
You will probably hear me do alot of whining, complaining and frustration, LOL
I am sure that would be the emotional feelings felt by any one who has spent their life living an unhealthy life for so many years and then to have this gift of being given the chance to start taking care of myself and putting myself first after all these years of feeling the need to take care of everyone before myself.
You will probably hear me do alot of whining, complaining and frustration, LOL
I am sure that would be the emotional feelings felt by any one who has spent their life living an unhealthy life for so many years and then to have this gift of being given the chance to start taking care of myself and putting myself first after all these years of feeling the need to take care of everyone before myself.
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